Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Have i become so blind that i did'nt even see him rite smack infront of my eyes. Was it just a big lie? I had visions of another guy, why have i become so blind?? All i thought about in sec 2 church camp was " him, him, him."

Now that i realised "???" was the one who liked me all this time, i feel like such a fool. Now i can't even get to see him. Love hurts. Im sorry that im telling all this shit rite now, but i have been keeping it in for so long i had to let it out. I dun stand a chance anymore. i doubt im even the person in his eyes. He probally met another girl who is nicer, smarter, much much prettier than me. Why did'nt he just tell me then!! What can i do now? I have no choice, i will just have to live my life like how it was, be me, and pretend that i never liked him. It's already hard as it is living everyday knowing that i will never see him again. Chelsea anne Rodrigues... you are such a clown. i am even so desperate as to post something that i noe will not happy like chain mails... KUKUNANA .. thats what nicole would call it. But i guess that's what love does to people. It makes them crazy. That's why sometimes i prefer not to love. Some even go as far is suicide for love... that is just bonkers.. Anyway, at least i got my friends, my sister, my family. Not forgetting my passion. My poetry, my art, my window, my soul. At least i'll be taking my mind off things. At least i learned something like dun be so blind next time. I dun regret the things i do, i have to learn from a few wrong turns right?

Until next time i remain yours truly a window to my soul... ~poison~