Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Topic for today: me myself and I.

I've been feeling abit quirky. One minute im happy one minute im not so happy but not sad either. It gets kind of annoying after while-like the stupid weather these days.

Not to mention boys, they think they are so freaking hot. jeez.. telling me i like them when i only know them for three hours? wth!
I ain't interested boy.
Don't get me wrong, you are nice as a friend but don't jump to conclusions.

Today i had to run for P.E what a good stress reliever. After my run had major stomach cramps. Ouch. i felt like i was constipating or something.
The new series, in channel 18 Starworld, "heroes" is quite interesting.
I might actually watch it every wednesday now. haha.
I did'nt go to the library today though i was too tired.

O'levels. Im beginning to adjust into it i just need a little more time.
It's tough. i'll have to admit it. The jump from N'levels to O'levels is HUGE. There is a massive difference.

Mrs Yue..
Well.. My class comittee tried talking to her about how we do not understand her lessons etc but before my chairman, Lai Mun, could even finish what she was going to say, Mrs yue decided to cut her off by saying "nevermind"
WTH??WTF??
She's suppose to listen to what her students have to say. She says we have to tell her if we don't understand but when they tried yesterday it failed.
Freaking annoyed with her. Seriously!

Im actually really annoyed with something but what the heck, it's not like blogging it will change anything. Stubborness is the factor here.


BEfore i go..

this is for Zubai

Dear Zubai,

You are not an invisible person. You are not ugly or atrocious looking. You may not be girly whirly but you've got an amazing heart and a very beautiful soul. You may not realise it because you are consumed by your sadness and disappointments.
Don't let that darkness consume you any longer. Let the light out and let it shine the beauty that you truly hold inside.

I know you want to know what it's like to feel loved by someone else but there are so many ways where one can feel loved. Don't let BGR be the only form of it.
You may not find the right guy right now but you will and he will be amazing because he won't be only loving you for your looks but for who you truly are as well. He will love all of who you are.
For now enjoy the free single life and live life like every day's your last. So come on now and put that frown upside down. Love is found in the weirdest places. You've already found it just not in the form that you want. We're still young so lets not give up our youth being sad yea.
4 years is too long to be sad. Take Care God Bless!

Love ya Babe!
Chels.





Ok dokes. lil ladies and lil boys.
Aurevoir
Ohyasumi Nasai.
Good night. sweet dreams..

Posted by Chelsea at 1/31/2007 11:44:00 PM

It's hard on all of us.
What can i say?
Most boys are the same.
I am one girl who is seriously not interested in a relationship now. It's too tiring , too complicating, too disappointing, too upseting. I am strong but i can't deal with these things now.
It's very distracting.

The worst thing is you feel so empty. Its as if your heart has been ripped out of your chest.
Knowing myself really well, once im emotionally distraught I know i will fall sick. I will have fever, i will look pale.

So i've decided. No more relatioships for now at least. Until my olevels are over.
So saddening..
SO many issues.. Argh!

Someone please take my place at let me go on a holiday!!
Sweet freedom-10 more months!!
Endurance-10 more months

FIght people fight..
sleep is what i need now.. and peace.

going to R.I.P now..
see you tmr..

Posted by Chelsea at 1/31/2007 12:21:00 AM

Sunday, January 28, 2007

From what i've observed, most of the time it's the girls getting hurt. I know how they feel and it hurts me. Alot.

I wish they was a way where no girl has to ever feel like that ever again. I wish I had the power so that no girl will have to feel what i've felt, to go through hell, to go through trials, to be the one to suck it all in.
i wish there were ways where the boys could see what is really happening when we fake up a smile, shed a tear, prayed for someone else and not ourselves.
I wish there were ways to show that when promises are made we keep them.
I wish there were ways to show that we have hearts not made of rocks, tears not made of ice. We fall , WE cry, We get insecure.


They promise, they never keep, they lie, they cheat..
What else?
Im not Generalising. It's a fact for most boys.
I Don't hate boys but im beginning that i have a need to protect my fellow women never to feel like that again. To feel like their not good enough, to feel let down, to feel disappointment, To be filled with hatred that drives them to hurt boys, to feel heartbroken.

Boys, I know you say women are bitches,
But what made them this way? have you thought about it?
Have you ever considered the fact that maybe past relationships have made them this way?
That maybe that was a way to keep their Guard up. That maybe that was a way for them to protect their hearts from getting hurt again. Why do you give empty promises?
Is it a game to you guys?
Seriously, have you considered that too much sweet talk and false hopes will end up hurting her twice as much when it comes down to "should we end it ?"
"Move on and get over with it?"
WE can't do it that fast like you guys, you find girls with a snap of your finger.
YOu find girls that are totally different form us.
We always try to find someone similar. I know stupid.
But that is how much we love.
I can't say the same about you guys.


Women, i dunno what the hell is wrong with boys, BUT. if any guy can enlighten me. please tag so i will understand. I want to understand. I want to know why.
Im not speaking becaus im heartbroken now. Im speaking because over and over again girls are the one sucking it in. It's hurting me.

I don't understand. I think we should understand one another. I don't like the fact that Boys will never understand girls and Vice Versa?
Is there somewhere, where everyone understands how one feels?


So if there is any guy out there who can give me constructive feedback please do so . i want all women to understand.


~confused and tired, my worries and frustrations splattered on this page~

Posted by Chelsea at 1/28/2007 09:15:00 PM

Saturday, January 27, 2007

Everyone of my friends are feeling the Olevel stress including me.
Pouring on our heads, homework after homework, coursework after coursework.
Besides that we've got lots on our minds. For me it's my emotions my memories and the whole Gerald incident that i need to erase in order to hinder it from affecting my work.
Im making my way to the top and im gonna pull my friends along with me.
We have to make it to a Good Poly or JC by hook or by crook.

So today im here to tell all of you if you're reading.

I know we've all been stretched real thin lately.
Homework piling on our desks, Falling back in our sciences.
Our Chemistry teacher ain't exactly good.
Coming to school even if we're sick.

I know we're all gonna make it if we believe.
Let's not give up hope.
We'll all climb the mountain together to reach the top like we promised.
We will pull each other to greater heights.Let's take this as another challenge

So what are we?
Fighters or quiters?
you decide..

Love you guys.
Muah!


~thank you lord for reviving my soul~

Posted by Chelsea at 1/27/2007 02:54:00 PM

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Dear Lord,

My form of prayer through blogging is the only way i feel i should express.
Give me the strength. You know how tired i am emotionally, physically and mentally.
Help me and guide me back to your light. I feel like if drifted off somewhere. Pick me back up again and hold me closein thy welcoming arms. Let me see the beauty of your grace again Lord.
I've lost the fire that used to burn so brightly in me. I've been shaken. burn in me again Oh, Lord.
Open my eyes to the work of your hands. Let me sing your praise with passion again. Give me a sign. Tell me what to do.
Tell me where to go.
I leave everything in your hands. Help me Oh lord, im lost.

Love
Chels

Posted by Chelsea at 1/25/2007 09:43:00 PM

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

You know that feeling when you think you've moved on but you somehow still seem stuck?
yeap. That's how i feel. It's not that I want Gerald back or something, it's just been very hard to move on. The pain he caused and how much i let my guard down just to try to start again. How much i fell since that. Im at a bottomless pit.
I might say i hate him, i despise him, i hate him for hurting me but the truth is, i don't. Im just so upset and hurt.

Im sorry about blogging about this now but i've been keeping it in for too long and its starting to suffocate me. I've been acting like i don't care, like im strong and that nothing can break me.
Nothing can break me completely but it does break me and im strong but when i've fallen, i've fallen. In school im all smiles cause im distracted from what's really bothering me. That's why i run. Literally run. I know.. I hate running but recently i find it so comforting. It's like if you pushed abit harder nothing or no one can touch you.

My friends have all been there telling me to be strong, that im better off without him but now i can't hide anymore. Im not well. Emotionally tired and weak. No more pretending that im fine.
I've been bottling it up so much that now im exploding like a emotional volcano.
I don't understand why. Why he has to be telling Leslie stuff like Leslie won't be with cristy when he migrates, that he'll find some better girl and she'll find some better guy.
It's so insensitive.
I takes to hands to clap ; Being with him has destroyed my happiness but at the same time it will streghthen me as a person.

I don't even know what's going on his life now.
From a source i've heard that he's seeing another girl. That's pretty fast.
To consider the fact that he "loved" me.
I find it hard to believe right now.
all my friends tell me he's a scumbag. Espeacially Dom, Cristy, Hannah.
Right now i feel like a loser because once again i've broken my own self.
I should have known better but i never do.
Pictures after pictures of him and I together. Deleting them felt like my heart shredding itself up. However, i have to. I have to move on and forget. Erase him from my memoirs. The words he spoke to me.
THe poems he sent. Each gesture and touch.
I have to forget all.
And it's not easy....

~You've hurt me alot. I think you should know that. Besides the fact you hurt me you had to hurt my sister and Leslie for saying such stuff that leslie has told me about.~

I hope you read this. I hope you don't do this to the girl you're currently after now.
It's hard to be friends with you ever again or even talk to you. I just can't. And im too broken to see ya or talk to you.

You should have known that if you liked the chase you should have never asked me to be your g.f in the first place.
And the selfish reason for breaking up with me. That's the part that hurt me the most.
You are a nightmare within a dream that i should have seen coming.

You are the biggest disappointment i've ever felt in my life. I gave you all my love and this is what you throw back to me and im the one that has to suck it all in. Im the one who has to fix myself now. im the one broken.

You hate women?
There you go.
You've dumped a women.
Happy now?
Feel a sense of pride now?
You are a walking Contradiction.
Yo say you hate owmen but you go around looking for one to love.
What does that tell ya?
Don't you think it's a little ironic?
And when it's over you say the girl was the one who is this and that.
Then when you dump the girl you say sorry and make up this whole hollabaloo "i miss her" and then a few weeks later you find yourself another girl.

that's what you call a walking contradiction.
I tried to help ya but you pushed me away.
So there you go.
You happy now?

I was your girl,
gave you my word,
my everything
but you would'nt see,
i had your back,
i backed you up.
whatever i did,
was never enough.

Just you, (you)
All you ever thought about you, (you)
No one matter's like you do.
What comes around goes around you should know by now.

"Who is the one crying now?"


*My feelings splattered on this page*
8.56pm.
23.Jan.07.
Tuesday.

Posted by Chelsea at 1/23/2007 08:33:00 PM

Monday, January 22, 2007

Walking down the road,
on the way home.
Thinking about the times,
where it did'nt go wrong.

Love and pleasure,
rolled in one.
happiness,
under the sun
Complications,
but we understood.

Fought through the ice,
to break myself free.
Built up a wall,
so i won't ever feel.
I gave in,
thinking there would be no harm.
Let my guard down,
for another chance.
But i find myself,
captured again.
Tangled,
with knots all over.
Broken,
like glass that's shattered.

~ how did something so beautiful end up being a nightmare?~

Posted by Chelsea at 1/22/2007 11:35:00 PM

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Shh! come out to the light,
you don't have to hide,
Reveal your true form,
deep inside.

Tears and anger hidden by your smile,
stop trying to be strong.
You're falling through the cracks can't you see,
you have pushed your feelings too deep.

Enough , I say.
Enough.
you don't have to hide,
come out to the light,
reveal thy true form,
hidden inside.

Cry, i say.
Cry,
let it all out.
Comments need not be heard,
you know what you need,
hide them all in the dirt.

Come back to the light my child,
come back.
Come back my child,
come back.

come back to me,
my spirit,
my strength
come back.....

you don't have to pretend anymore,
you've fallen..

~when i wanted to cry, i could'nt cause I was'nt allowed. Gomenasai for everything.~

Posted by Chelsea at 1/21/2007 04:17:00 PM

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Today is a pleasant day.

goofy day at school.

Mother tonuge period-
sat beside Eugene along with Ru yan and Gui Fang.
Crapping at how our ex's are.
Then Krystal joined the whole crap session.
I dun pay attention in chinese class i dun care, i dun bother else well.
ok.. im not that bad..
The teacher just gave us work and i decided not to do it because i didnt have my book. lol
So we have all decided that our Ex's are complete Bo-zos!
But we never regret dreadful experiences.

CME period-
WE normally have free period druing CMe to study watever stuff
Went back to my seat, sat beside Syafiq and Vignes.
Laughed like crazy. Could'nt concentrate. However i managed to study and memorise my S.S notes. HA!
Syafiq was being very cheeky!! very very cheeky!
tsk tsk!
Vignes was sick so she was sent home.
poor girl.. i guess she's been really tired as well. Everyones feeling the Olevel stress symptoms. lol. Even I.


SS period-
had a quiz.. nothing much..

CHEMISTRY-
hate the teacher, nothing more to say. learnt that the teacher has eyes but is blind. could'nt pronounce my name.. ok let be nicer she was illiterate.
she called me Cheleste.. where ESTE come from?
Im Chelsea.. not Cheleste MADAM!
i still dislike her.
I gave her the i dun care about you look. Dun like her at all!
Dunno how she became HOD of science..

RECESS-
fave period because i get to do my own stuff and not see teachers! lol.
as usual.. all the smae people including Syafiq.. He's always surrounded by girls..
lol.
That idiot put ice down my back. or rather my front. wateva. I still screamed.
Luckily AFena was not pinching people's ass's today. haha.
Loudest Girl in school. Noisy! lol.


Geography period-
was ok.. nothing interesting happened.

Math-
learnt new stuff


Nicole gave me a bloody hard attack,
and i finally confessed my current liking to Nicole and Dominic.
but it's not like Wow like..
lol..
Taking things slowly this time.
lol. finding things out and enjoying my finally single days..

I have come to finally notice that..
When people step into a relationship they tend to get more sad.
but when they are single they tend to have more fun and be more happy.

and i for one can't afford to be depressed or heartbroken this year. Nomore playing.
I gotta get my head in the books and into the zone. NERD ZONE!!
time to be nerdified for awhile people..
sunday's a charm... you get to be cool again. lol.

well at least i ain't gonna be a nerd on Sunday's no way!

I went for a run today as well with Suzie. clear my mind and all. thought about lots of stuff whle running. running does really help you clear your mind.
then went back up oh and i tried something new!! lol.
But it cant be said here. lol.

ok dokes. so tired..
TOODLES!! loves!

Posted by Chelsea at 1/18/2007 11:18:00 PM

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Im so sick of this.
I hate the feeling. I have so much hatred in me that i never had before. It's starting to choke me up.
I just can't seem to let go of this hatred i have.
Why?

Every night i think about it. It drives me nuts. I keep praying for a sense of relief and peace but i hardly feel it now. I get agitated so easily. im so impatient now espeacially to boys. I don't know why.
i Get angry very fast now. im like some volcano.

In school with my friends i don't feel that way. Why is it when im alone i feel all this shit?
Is it because i finally start acknowledging my inner feeling, my insecurities? i've been burying it so far down that it's starting to catch up to me. Running and running but it just seems to catch up to me.

I don't want to remmeber it Lord,
I don't want to remember anything, Lord
I want it out of me.
I don't want any of it.
It's been repeating and it's not fair!
Im crying out Lord, take it away from me.
Relieve my soul, calm the storm in me.


~ when time starts catching up to you, you know how much you've been running from~

Posted by Chelsea at 1/17/2007 05:37:00 PM

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

I did'nt go to school today.
I guess i've been stretched to thinly.
Im just so tired. I had a bad headache in the morning and i decided not to go to school.

Handed my homework and stuff to Syafiq to pass it to my Teacher so i won't miss out on my lessons.
I still have homework to do. oh boy.. Homework everyday.. Homework on the weekends..
Where are the days when everyday's free??
It's times like this that i miss PSLE. It's less hectic and stressful.
I can play all i want and still pass the darn papers..

However i feel better resting at home. Now im all charged up.
Tomorrow's a new day which reminds me there's P.E class. YEa!
Netball again!! Goodie!!

which also reminds me.. F&N lesson.. DARN COURSEWORK!!

I just want it over!!
Once my O'levels are over..im gonna be the happiest girl alive.
Let's pray that i pass this year with good grades once again yea..

I dunno why im talking about this now.. but it seems so near and it's scaring me.
I hardly have time for myself anymore. I hardly have time for TV or to go down for a stroll.
I just wish the teachers will quit pushing us all so hard.
It's scaring me.

I don't want to be wound up so tight..



yawn..yawn..
time to complete the rest of my homework..

toodles..

Posted by Chelsea at 1/16/2007 05:58:00 PM

Well im gonna make this quick cause i've got school tomorrow.

Yesterday's Surprise Party for my dad turned out to be a success!!
All that hardwork and headaches i had at home and tonnes of squables between my mum cristy, tita and I all paid off.
The party in total came up to about a thousand odd dollars.
Each table had their own wine.
My table had two bottles of wine which apparently i did'nt get enough off cause i was too busy walking around and Frances took my last glass of wine and gupled it down.

Uncle Melvin won 70 odd dollars yesterday for human jackpot. It was so funny!
My dad loved the poems Cristy and i wrote and recited infront of everyone.
Everyone enjoyed themselves. Im very happy with the outcome of the party. Im just so glad its over so i can focus on my studies now. Been so busy that it drove me nuts and left me in school crying in the morning last week. lol

But im all better now.

Let's see what else.
Oh yea There was dancing. Lots and Lots of Dancing. For some odd reason. I decided to take the Dance floor. lol. I was A wee bit crazy yesterday. lol. You know what they say:
Girls just wanna have fun.

We also had Line dancing and stuff lol.
It was real fun. I enjoyed myself after all the hardwork. Phew!

My dad recieved so much Hongbao's!! what a lucky arse!
Touch 4D some more... twice!

jeez! how lucky can you get man?
Anyway my Paps is in Brunei now on official business and he'll be back soon!!
Oh yea he loves the two ties i gave him. Im happy!!

What else?
I officially DESPISE this teacher.
She is the most annoying teacher ever .. I so dislike her now!!
MRS YUE!! argh .. she drives me up the wall!!
i dunno how she became the HOD of Science but i tink they should demote her man. her teaching skills is not as good as Mrs Whey. Mrs Whey can teach so well that my chem went up last year.


ANyway, besides that My cousins back from Australia. Went shopping today. Bought a new handbag. Nice cream colour. charles and keith.
lovely day.
Annoying teacher.
Success story.

Ok dokes the end.

Loves!
Chels

Posted by Chelsea at 1/16/2007 12:25:00 AM

Sunday, January 14, 2007

She's Been so confused,
so tired of feeling this way.
She feels like she needs a break,
to take away all her pain.
Her soul has been so restless,
finding for a place to stay.
Though it's residence in her,
somehow it does'nt really feel the same.
Trying to escape,
but how much can she run?
She knows,
when she's alive,
that feelings are real,
it can't be denied.

~cause i know your light can fix my broken heart lord.~

Posted by Chelsea at 1/14/2007 02:30:00 PM

Saturday, January 13, 2007

heyhey,

Posted by Chelsea at 1/13/2007 03:18:00 PM

Thursday, January 11, 2007

this is a funny story actually.
Truth is i don't really care about whoever or wateva..
If you say i go for losers.. Yea YOU ARE RIGHT.
Examples?
Too many to name.

Wanna date a loser give me a buzz..i'll intro you.
Get hurt?
do one thing, kick them in the nut and tell them they deserve it.

Want excellent friends?
i got them all.
but when it comes to picking the kinda of guy.
NO WAY!



THE END OF FUNNY STORY

Posted by Chelsea at 1/11/2007 03:38:00 PM

Driplets of blood,
now stained by my heart.
Each carrying a tale,
of a lover's touch.
Soft and delicate it may be,
but the memories are worth more than me.
Buried by appearance,
by a smile.
But when it all goes down,
when im left alone,
all i can think is,
where did it all go wrong?

Dead,
but i still feel.
And when i cry I know,
i still got a few tears to shed all frozen by the cold.

~rekindle the fire for me.~

Posted by Chelsea at 1/11/2007 03:06:00 PM

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Just got back from school.
Rushed through my homework in band.
Yes! i was super annoyed by the fact that i still needed to go to band. However i realised how much i really miss it there.
I can't believe my homework starting to get more but im fine with it. I can manage it.

Basic rules how not to get stress.

1) Relax and calm down
2) tell yourself you can do it, and you will.
3) Call up you Best Friend!!**
4) Listen to songs that are calming for the soul.
5) Talk to yourself and tell yourself to shut up and just do what's right infront of you.

It works for me.. lol.

How have i been. People's been asking me since my last break up.

Let's just say im still living and doing the best with what i have. Learning and falling and rising again.
When it comes to life, you've got to love it, live it, take it, learn from it.
Im alright now, i just get a little sidetracked sometimes.
Schools been occupying my deep thinking time which is absolutely good.
Learnt how to appreciate myself too from the book life lessons for women. (Chicken soup)
Yes im a bookworm these days. You can see me reading a book almost every minute.
It's really good.
However, chauvanisits and feminists would probably think it's a piece of crap.

Well let me tell you something. I think Chauvanisits and Feminists are Walking CONTRADICTIONS with no absolute manners what so ever and their brain works like this
:
Im better than the other species.

Well get this straight.
Men are no better than women
and
Women are no better than men.

We all have our flaws, we all have our stregth. Get that in you freaking heads.

Women is this and that, Men is this and that. Shut up will ya and live in peace!
JEEZ! If you hate women or men so much why do you even bother being into a relationship so much?

The Irony of it ALL!

I DO NOT, Reapeat, DO NOT like SEXIST! I've had enough.

Ok i finally let that out.

Oh yea, My dad's birthday is coming!!
It's on friday. I think he'll love the two tie's i bought him!!
1 marunish red and 1 copper brown.

Till next time.

With much love,
Chels.

Posted by Chelsea at 1/09/2007 06:48:00 PM

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Hey Hey!

I just got back home. Im so tired!!
Woke up in the morning and gave Dominique wake up calls and one wake up message. Went to church met Leslie, Debs, Don and Dom. We were a bit late.
Anyways After mass went for lunch at Macs talked and crapped. Valentines day!! Oh jeez!

No valentine yet. Yes Bridget we will spend Valentitines together if we are both dateless. I am spending Valentines day with Hannah and Zubai [school girlys aka my Best friends]. Girls day out.

Anyways, after macs followed dom to the bicycle shop to pay his stuff and collect his bicycle parts or something then we took a bus to the interchange and waited for nicole. She was LATE!
We went to Dom's house and chilled there. Played the drums and the guitars then watched the robin williams show and laughed alot. Waited for dom to finish his homework while Nicole and i fell asleep on the couch. im not lazy i am just very tired cause alot went on this week. We slept for about half an hour then we went to queensway to buy Dom's shoe.

In the Bus on the journey to queens way Dom fell asleep haha. He leaned on nicole then he leaned on me then nicole again. haha. He was so funny. i kept laughing with nicole. Oh and there was this guy beside me who kept farting. It was Horrid!
Oh and today i tried my very first laksa thanx to Dom and Nicole. It tasted good. lol.
Then we headed back home.

So now im home doing my Homework.
What a long day!
1 week to the big day.

I still have to compose my song for my dad. Got the tune down just need inspiration for lyrics. oh boy. So much to do so little time...

Ok toodles. Take Care.

WIth love
Chels

Posted by Chelsea at 1/07/2007 09:57:00 PM

Friday, January 05, 2007

Hey! i just got home from youth night.
Firstly wanna say sorry to Dominique for leaving him alone. I needed to rush off cause Fujioka was waiting for me at Sembawang MRT. I promise to have dinner with you some other time.

Anyways,
Today was fun. haha. Eugene and Christopher were so funny!! I have'nt laughed that much in a long time. I laughed till my tummy ached. It was seriously funny! haha! They were doing some lyrical dance thingy and making fun of the people in So you think you can dance. It was hilarious!
The whole room was laughing. lol.
I had gastric but it all went away when i started laughing lol.

Oh boy, tmr i've got to go to school early in the morning!! Nvrm i enjoy band and the company of my percussion mates. We're gonna steal the show tmr guys.
Oh yea today in school Syafiq and I were changing lyrics of songs. It was so funny! I laughed alot today. lol.
I can't believe we've been in the same class since sec1. lol

Nothing much to talk about today.

P.S Dominique, i'll sms ya tmr to tell ya whether i can do homework with ya cause i dunno what time i'll be home and plus i dunno where you wanna go.

Thanx Fujioka for sending me home today and yesterday. Without fail saying Oyasumi to me when you send me home. lol. You like my house right? You should come by sometime then we can take Suzie, my dog, for a walk since we live so freaking near. Oh, sorry for making you wait!!

Hannah, don't give up yea. You know what i mean. Talk to you soon girly.

Zubai, i know you read my blog, meet up sometime soon. You promised me and hannah valentines day, Girl's day out remember you better be present or i'll be knocking on your door.

Love all of you loads,
Chels

till next time, this happy teen is outty. Take Care!

Posted by Chelsea at 1/05/2007 11:15:00 PM

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

First day of school.
Nothing much. Long Speech for the principal. Jeez!
School now ends at 1:10pm and on wednesday's it ends at 2:10pm and on fridays 12:40pm.
I had homework on the first day of school. Teachers pressurising us!! Im getting used to it.
Heck! I've been through worst.

My teachers were all asking me how i achieved my N'level results. I was like huh? i dunno. Study?
Im not sure whether i can get grades like that for my O'levels. It's gonna be so tough.
My english teacher said she was gonna treat us like crap and toture us. I could feel the pressure seething right through my skin. It was scary. Miss Wong is SCary but she's good.

Went out with hannah today and did our homework and talked at Starbucks. We also bought our stuff for school. I still have'nt got some of my books jeez. Plus my uniform is Freaking loose. I need new ones. I want the new Pe-Tees. it's better that the one's we have now.
This year F&N two courseworks. Oh man!

Plus this week i've got band pracs for performance this Saturday. Ok maybe i enjoy doing that but courseworks? Two of em? NO WAY!!
In class im sitting inbetween Vignes and Syafiq. That's good. I can Irritate Syafiq haha. Okok Kidding!

Sitting Arrangement is as usual.
Now we're at the Fourth floor Middle block. I miss our old block and our old classroom. Today was complete mess.
Oh i finally got my cash for the GPA award. I still got my 80 bucks to collect from band. And good news. Mdm tan just gave birth to a baby boy.
Mdm Laila is Pregnant with her Third Child!
Mrs Whey also just gave birth.

So many teachers giving birth. Woah!
My Dad's birthday is coming up.
Project J is starting.
Everything seems to be moving very fast. I just can't belive it. And im not use to saying it's 2007 or Class 5n2.

I adapt fast so i'll get used to it soon.. I hope.

Those who have school,
Take CAre, All the best through out the year.
Achieve the best. May your year be glorious.
God Bless!
Loves!

Well i survived day 1 of school.
That's a good start. im just happy to see my friends again.

Posted by Chelsea at 1/03/2007 11:14:00 PM

Monday, January 01, 2007

Well,
I survived day 1 of new year.
I went to Nicole's house for the New Year celebration.
It was good. Made me happy. Plus all my friends were there.

My Dad's 55th Birthday is coming.
I am So Excited!!

Dominique do remember to help me with the song that i composed half way. Fill me in with the guitar tricks yea. ANd please remember you are performing. =). I'll call you soon to coordinate with ya. needa get it ASAP. Damn Nervous!

School is starting. Oh boy! O'levels!!
Study Bud: Dominique. 1 digit for olevels!
This Wednesday meeting up with Hannah to catch up on stuff.
Sunday Follow Dominique to Queensway to buy his shoe.
Upcoming Team "GodSent" youth meeting for the secret recipe voucher that is still on hold.

What else??

Please Be reminded:

Debs, Dom, Patty, Jerome, Frances, Jon. You guy's are in "Godsent" so please like sms me to tell me when you guys are free.

Ok Happy Chelsea Is finally Back and ready for more adventure.
Im Throwing 2006 away. This whole shit of moving on is all in the head and my head's working so i'll move on and throw 2006 away. It hit me when dominique said everything is all in the head and that your mind is the most powerful force in your body. He was talking about this story on how he managed to accomplish the task right infront of him when he made himself think he could do it. So im doing the same. Theoretically speaking, it is true that your mind is the most powerful force in your body.

I rather look forward than stare at something which has already passed. No more lingering.
My mind is now focused on my Family, Friends, Project J, Last but not least. O'levels (the only thing left that's stressing) However, with friends like mine anything is possible.

I feel like im floating on a cloud of infinite possibilities now. Im happy with it.
Im happy with me.=) Breaking free. =) I always do.


~My mind is my own weakness. My mind is my own strength.~
~broken hearts mend slowly, but when they do they come out of it beautifully.~
~rejection is only feared by those who do not have hope in their hearts.~

Posted by Chelsea at 1/01/2007 10:38:00 PM

Posted by Chelsea at 1/01/2007 12:02:00 PM

Chelsea Anne Camilla Rodrigues

The Gift of Love

Love is Patient;
Love is Kind;
Love is not boastful,arrogant or rude.
It does not insist on its own way;
It is not irritable or resentful;
It does not rejoice on wrong-doing,
but in the truth.
It bears all things,
believes all things,
hopes all things.
Love never ends.

From the Bible
1 Corinthians 13:4-8

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