Wednesday, August 09, 2006

I had a weird dream last night.Every moment in my life, happy or sad kept running in my mind. I can see it replaying in my dreams. It's as if i was still living in the past. Past loves, Past school friends.. past mischiefs... past heartbreaks... everything.. the dream felt so real. Like i could almost touch it. I could feel it. Dreaming is a form of healing. Maybe conciously i don't know it but subconciously i might be just running away from my past. I use to do that when i was young. Whenever i don't like what's happening i run. I know it's no use running but i was scared.
Glancing on my memories made me wake up and realise that i can never run away from my past.

What do you do then if you know someone is upset and you know you can't talk to him or her because it's gotten a little weird?
No matter how much you want to speak to him or her you are just rooted to the ground
No matter how hard you try you just can't bring yourself to say are you alright

I know im suppose to ask him but i just can't. I just Can't anymore. Things are different. I can't even bring myself to say hi. Is that a form of running away? How do i start? Where do i go from here?

I have no courage whatsoever to talk to him. nothing. i feel so useless. That's the person that needs me the most rite now and yet i can't speak to him. It's been Bothering me. I just hope you understand why i can't speak to you. It's not that i don't want to. It's just that im scared to. Im afraid.