Monday, September 25, 2006

I did'nt go to school today. I had major bad cramps in the middle of the night yesterday and i started puking. I sat at my living couch lying there in deep thought. I had some sad memoirs running in my head and some happy ones. One of the memories i remembered was Cristy and I banging on the piano when we were kids and the chaos we used to create in the house. Haha. I then looked at the picture sitting on my coffee table and saw the picture of my late grandma and started crying. Somehow i felt her presence yesterday. The silence last night was so deafening. i could hear my heart beat like a thousand drums. I hugged the pillow on the couch close and cried to myself. I took panadol and a glass of warm water and then went back to sleep at 2+ am.
My mum woke me up today and i told her i was'nt feeling very well. I guess im really stress ontop of that im really upset. My 16 birthday is sorta ruined. I got to study on my birthday and stay at home instead of having fun. Ontop of that i've got English homework. I seriously don't feel like going to school on my Birthday. I don't want to see anyone. I know im complaining but how can i not? it's my 16 birthday its suppose to be sweet and everything. It's more like stressed 16 birthday. Im terribly upset. Whatever, i'm over that. I know birthday's are just another day. Look on the bright side rite? I still have my 18th and 21st birthday.. lol.

I know all this will pass soon. I need to strive on and get my mind lock tight on my nlevels that will be commencing next week. AFter that i could maybe take a breather and enjoy my holidays. Just two more weeks to freedom. Sweet, sweet, freedom.

~ Just think of this and me as just a few of many things to lie around to clutter up your shelves And I wish you weren't worth the wait because there's some thing's I'd like to say to you...~