Wednesday, December 20, 2006

It's times like these where silence means everything. Is that from a song? yeap it is.

Im wondering and hoping. Im praying. Is that another test i have to go through where my heart slowly rips my insides apart?

Lifeless....

Was'nt i suppose to feel this way?

I love him.

jynx me something crazy.

Being me, Being Chelsea.

I would'nt want him any other way.

It's hard enough for me as it is.

I don't want to be left hanging.

Left there hanging waiting for my last breath to end.

I love him and that's all that matters right now.

Can you blame me for feeling so shitified?

I feel like im never gonna be good enough and the thing is, it's me.

Always me.

My playground,

silent swings swaying in the breeze,

keep me still,

calm the storm in me........

Engulf me in your fire,
and cleanse my soul.
For i am hurting Oh lord,
hurting.
Come to my rescue and hold me in your arms,
whisper sweet words in my ear.
hold me,
hold me dear.
Don't let me fall,
never let me fall.
Catch me.
I trust in thee,
let me feel your presence,
Let me feel thee near.
Your presence soothes me,
but you make it hard for me to trust, Oh Lord.
show me,
where do i go from here?
i love him...
as simple as that
yet hard.
i just do