Saturday, December 23, 2006

Well,
Today i had big fight with Cristy. Adding to my current situation i did'nt take the figth well and left the house without a word and ran in the rain.
Yes, the rain. Im sorry for making you worry Cristy.
Fortunately we're both alright now.
I just came back From Sentosa with my choir friends.
My legs are really Sore. I did'nt expect to have fun actually, but i did.
We played on those Big floats at Palawan beach and i had to clinb this big thing and i just did'nt have the strength to but this kind European guy pulled me up. I had fun bouncing and jumping on the floats and just not thinking about anything else. Had some girl talk on the mini floats too.
I had alot of reassurance telling me i did'nt fail. It just feels like it you know..

We also played Monkey's ball. Yes i was very enthusiastic. diving and trying to snatch for the ball. What can i say?
I choose not to think about anything else except the game.
The best thing was running on the beach. I loved running on the sand. It had this very relieving feeling.
Anyway while playing Monkey's ball and me being so enthu- i cramped my muscles up.
Jeez it was painful. Thank you Eugene's (choir) Dad for pushing my foot back so my muscle could stretch.

AFter that took some pictures,
then we went to bathe.
Anyway, all in all i proved myself wrong because i did have fun and i forgot about everything when i was there. I just played hard and be very enthu in everything.

However Night fell, and i felt this sudden hurt and it left me confused.
I touched my heart immediately when i felt it.
It was'nt me, it was something else.

However, i shall not dwell on it.

Tomorrow is Christmas eve.
Im attending the Midnight mass.
Im happy and Sad.
Happy cause i get to wear my gown, sad because of what i just went through.
I predicted my christmas was'nt gonna be spectacular this year a few days ago or about a week ago and i was right.

My intuition seems to be getting stronger....
And it seems whatever i feel right now seems to be always right as in it does happen in the end.
Nice but scary.

Anyway,

I just want to say to everyone out there,
Merry Christmas.
May all your dreams come true and may your new year be filled with more hope and love.

Not Forgetting Nicholas Fujioka Yesterday for talking to me on Msn and telling me so many things that made me feel a tad unique from the rest and helping me or trying to give me strength to move on slowly.
Eugene and Edmund as well for talking to me on the bus just now.
Mel and Bel, for telling me that their always be there.
Debs, For tagging me and telling me it's not the end of the world which i know already. Love you too girly.

oh ya, My dad finally knows,
yes i cried last night cause i had to repeat the story and my dad gave me a hug and advised me and said it's natural to go through such things. He said he's glad im handling it better, much better this time.
My mum's proud of me too cause she said i handled the breakup better this time even though i cried, i handled it better.
Tita is also proud of me and she said that i've grown to be a mature young lady.

Im happy that i've grown that much since last year. im ready for more tests and trials that may come my way sooner or later. im ready to grow wiser and stronger. But for now i'll put myself on hold for the adventure till i regain my strength and my spirit back.

Till the next time i blog,
Thank you to all those that has been and inspiration to me in my time of need and my route to happiness again. I love all of you loads.