Saturday, April 14, 2007

Hey people!

You know that feeling where you know you already let go of attachements and things that hinder you from being a better person but you still feel a bit connected to it? get what i mean?
Anyways i felt a tinge of it today. I felt a tiny bit sensitive today. Thinking about the certain memories i had from a child to now and how much i've grown. I've been relfecting like how strong i became from a young child to a rebellious pre teen to a young lady who has fought so much of her trials to be who she is now. Some memories were filled with laughter, some sadness, some a lot of pain and some even stupidity.

Then i realised, wouldn't it be nice to go back in the past and relive you past for one day or even be a child again cause i know as sure as hell that it was much easier being a child. I remember all i had to do was simple maths which seemed so hard when i was a child. haha. I didn't have to care cause everything was taken care of for me. Everything i asked for was given to me. It struck me like how fortunate that I have a life filled with so much love. Frankly to be honest i think my life rocks even with it's up and downs.
I have a family to run to, i have a pool of friends to cry to or to bitch to. I have many shoulders to cry on while some people don't even have any. Some have whacked up families and they mix with the wrong bunch of friends. I have a family that is not rich but is stable in income and im really happy that i live such a wonderful life.

Honestly if were'nt for all these significat and insignificant things in my life like my family and my friends i would'nt have grown to be someone strong cause half the time i have people pushing me to strive on when im weak. I have people cheering me on when i gave up.
Im just really blessed and im not afraid to admit it or boast about it.

My life is really picture perfect even with the bumps here and there. It just makes it so interesting. I really have no idea why im blabbing on about this but i just feel like i should be really thankful for this and that's why im blogging about it.

Now its about patience. I know pass few months i have really been very impatient espeacially to nonsensical guys then dont make sense and don't mean anything to me. Im just saying im learning to be more patient now and im taking things a little more lightly. I figured it's no used getting worked up. It does'nt solve problems it just creates more problems. Im not saying im successful at controling my temper very well but i am improving in it.

Then now my friendster,
i seriously feel like deleting it but then again its one of the ways i communicate with my friends. However there are really annoying people messaging me on friendster and when i turn down their add they get pissed. I don't even know the dude. My gosh!

That's why my status is on married and my profile is not viewable to anyone else accept you darlings. As in my friends. I would also like to say the my messaging is also limited to my friends.

So quit asking me who i am dating, who i am seeing. It's no one darlings.
See! i love yall so much that only you guys can see my profile. Haha!

I know these idiots can't read my blog but I want to say that if people don't accept your add just walk away and be a grown man. Stop whining about it. Don't bitch to me about it. I seriously do not care and i am seriously not interested.

Oh yea i also read the news paper recently about these pre teens going on the internet chats meeting up with pervs and having underage sex with them. I seriously think that it is really awfull.
All i want to say is WHY??! why are they doing this??!!
It's really sad.

Some get pregnant and abort their baby at the age of 15. It's really ridiculous. These rates have been rising and rising. I can't say anything anymore about that.Almost every once a month you see these headlines on the news paper to the point where you basically know what is the article is about and can even write a report about it without actually reading it. It's getting so common that you can actually predict when another article like that is gonna show up on the newspaper.

oh boy. 2 1/2 weeks left to Mid year. Time to get my head in the books and out of the clouds.

Anyways take care my lovelies.

Love,
Chels