Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Why am i created the way I am?
To feel the way I feel?
To act like how i act?

I wish i was someone different,
I wish i was somone calm.
I wish i did'nt have emotions
but mum and dad always told me to be who i am.

Lately i've just been tired,
I want to be someone different.
I want to be someone i would like,
because lately I don't like the way I am
even though I know i should.

I wish I did'nt have emotions,
Insane,
but true.
I wish i was just more like you.

I am trying,
trying my best to change.
Trying to be the best of who i am.

All this fighting,
all this hurt.
All this crying
I'm just like dirt.

Stained,
washed,
stained again.

Why must I be fashioned like this?

I know i should'nt be questioning the creator,
but i want to know why.
I create so many problems,
so many obstacles i have to face.

All my emotions you just pick and play,
while i'm left confused.
The one thing I love so much,
you almost took away from me that day.

Don't you know how much fear i have inside?

I want to get out of my head,
get of my mind.
I want to be ice again.

Sometimes,
I just feel ice is better than water.

Ice feels nothing.

everytime i think about you,
Ice can never be,
because with you,
i'm just water.

just like how water flows from the stream,
water flows from my heart and tries its best to make streams where obstacles are put.

like how nurses pricked my finger,
i feel thousands of pricks in my heart.
yet one by one cure,
and blood that flowed just washes away.

It washes away