Tuesday, April 01, 2008

From A Young Woman's Heart-The Break Up.

It takes so much more to totally tear a heart of a woman.

Because we grow from it and we bloom to a flower far stornger than the one you crushed in the palm of your hands

All "they" do is fill the void they have inside with another, replacing the one they had.

I've been torn so many times i can hardly remember- be it relationships or friendships or work or studies.
All i know i've been let down. It was never a good enough reason. Never.

"I did'nt have time to think about it"

Never. Never again will i trust the notorious promises of the tongue. Cliche, heard it over and over again.
I am not pretending to be strong so let me face it. I am so hurt and broken I had to go away to a foreign land.

All the promises, all the sorries, all that, can never measure up to how much hurt you've placed upon me. I could never hate you but one thing's for sure, i can never talk to you or see the memory again because everywhere i go you, you of all the others will haunt me the worse. You, you with all your broken promises tore me the worse. You the one who stole me away completely will never again capture my heart.

Because you. You out of all the rest i opened to the most and you, you knowing how vulnerable i was tore ME. You made my mother cry. YOu made my sister cry. You made my tita cry and you, you filled my dad's heart with much sorrow for me because you, you they learnt to trust.

I don't know what you fill your life with now, alcohol, other woman.. whichever ,, clubbing maybe. but you will never ever fill any void with all these things.

I can never replace you with someone else but one day someone else will fill my life and will never disappoiont me the way you did.
I don't hate you but i can never talk to you again..
and i'm not sorry for it because i'm just learning to protect myself.

I've grown so much stronger since and I've had support from everyone and pillars to hold me up when i fell.

I've learned to accept my fate and accept the fact it's never going to be. I threw my old life away and now im going to come out a new me.

Far greater than I was before and you are just another hurdle in my life for my taste of joy to come one day. You no longer fill my cup or make me happy because all you do is bring tears and sorrow in my heart now.

Because i carry the cross of this burden I will be risen again with joy. My place is with the true lover of my soul- God and you can never match up to him.

"i did'nt have time to think about it"

-never good enough a reason-
but...
I forgive you and that's it.

The end of you and me.

seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong

Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here i am once again,
im torn into pieces can't deny it can't pretend just thought you were the one.
Broken up deep inside,
but you won't get to see the tears i cry,
behind these hazel eyes.

I keep thinkin' bout that little sparkle in your eye
Is it a light from the angels, or your devil deep inside?
What about the way you say you love me all the time
Are you liftin' me up to heaven, just to drop me down the line?

But there's always this one question
That keeps me up at night
Are you my greatest love
Or disappointment in my life?

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around

That's right

I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me

Tell me where our time went
And if it was time well spent
Just don't let me fall asleep
Feeling empty again

Cause I fear I might break
and I fear I can't take it
Tonight I'll lie awake feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone feeling empty

I never wanted to say this

You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
You threw it away

Sleeping awake and awake when I'm sleeping
I've got a dry kind of thirst, when drenched
On sunny days, all I can see is a shadow
And I'm not above being under
And I'm at the brink though I know that I'm empty
And I always hide when it's my turn to seek
My only belief is not to have faith in believing
Before I begin, I'm over
(disconnected)

Broken off againand
I'm only not lonely when I'm lonely by myself
(disconnected)

Numb in pain again I always backtrack forward
Cause all in all, I'm disconnected

Quietly loud while noisily silent
Keep holding my breath when I'm trying to breathe
Swimming against all of the waves and the rapids
I only win when I'm losing
(disconnected)

In this farewell
There's no blood
There's no alibi
Cause I've drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousand guys

Here...here I am again
And I'm staring at these same four walls
Alone again
And now all the colors blend
And I'm growing up and i've become this empty page
Hold on it's tragic stumbling through all this static

I just wanna talk to you my broken heart just has no use
I, I guess promises are better left unsaid yeah
Everytime you try to tell me
You say the words that I'm the only
But i'm the one who's crawling on the ground
When you say love makes the world go round

Everytime you try to tell me
I don't care you're not the only

Kelly clarkson, paramore, Lindsay lohan, Linkin park, Pink, ashlee simpson..

once bitten, twice shy, but that's not the end of it
just the end of you and me.